I've been making jokes about being glad to be rid of a couple of kids for a while. Truth is, I'm starting to miss them like crazy. Less than 48 hours in. I'm not an overprotective parent. Wait, I take that back. I am an overprotective parent who consciously forces herself to allow her children to explore and grow into their own people. In a safe environment. I hope. (anxiety sets in)
Anyway, it reminds me of this Nickel Creek song. It's always been one of my favorites. But on my way home from dropping the boy off in the boonies, with no radio signal, I clicked over to CD. This was the song that came on, and now it won't leave my head. Pretty appropriate. And just enough to keep my chest completely constricted and my eyes watery.
You've got to leave me now, you've got to go alone.
You've got to chase a dream, one that's all your own.
Before it slips away.
When you're flying high, take my heart along.
I'll be the harmony to every lonely song
that you'll learn to play.
When you're soaring through the air I'll be your solid ground.
Take every chance you dare, I'll still be there
when you come back down.
I'll keep looking up awaiting your return.
My greatest fear will be that you will crash and burn
and I won't feel your fire.
I'll be the other handthat always holds the line.
Connecting in between your sweet heart and mine.
I'm strung out on that wire.
I'll be on the other end to hear you when you call.
Angel you born to flyand if you get to high,
I'll catch you when you fall.
Your memory's the sunshine every new day brings.
I know the sky is calling.
Angel, let me help you with your wings.
When you're soaring through the air, I'll be your solid ground.